Life Changes: Part 1

So, it is January 25th, and I have been single for around a week and a half. On Thursday the 14th, my live-in girlfriend of 3 years and I broke up, and she moved out. If this is news to you, then you don't really need more personal information, but if it's not, then you already know most of the pertinent information. Regardless, it was a very, very hard thing to do, as some people may already know. Doing something like that goes against pretty much every fiber in my being, and I have talked to many people and did a lot of thinking about it all. And if you know how much I think and over think generally, then you have an idea about how much I have thought about this extensively. While it was something I did not want to do, I did feel that in the end, at this time, it was the best thing for both of us. I can only pray that I am right. Unfortunately, only time will tell.

So, now the next part of life begins, as life has a happen of doing. Things are different, and in many ways they are the same. I think having so many things stay the same (or at least seem the same) is one of the hardest parts, because your mind wants to fall back into the same patterns it was become accustomed to for years. Alas, you can't let it, because that is not the reality of the next part of life.

So, I will do what I do best: adapt. Effectively adapting to situations is something I do very well (in some fashions), but it often proves difficult, because to adapt to a good or positive thing means you can become inured to it. Familiarity breeds contempt (although "contempt" wouldn't be the right word at all to use). I continue with school, which has gotten out of control (see next posting), and trying to keep up with it fills much of my time and mental energies.

I will try to spend more time with my family, whom I would have (and still eventually might) neglected in my pursuits of school, careers, and all the garbage that goes with it. I will try to expand my social circles. No... I will try to create my own social circles, to meet new people through the few new people I am lucky to have met, so that I can appreciate the good friends I do have now, and increase my exposure to more of the good kinds of humanity. I will try to do things properly, and to follow the very old, very tired, very over-played, very worn out, and very true cliché of trying to find myself. Then I can do what is right next.

Cross your fingers, wish me good luck, and introduce me to some of your friends. That's what you can do if you want to help me on my way, reader. And I will do the same for you, if I am able.